This section includes personal stories shared by Grateful S-Anon Members.
In movies, stories, and poems, they talk about heartbreak as beautiful and poetic. They never mention the physical pain, just taking a breath feels like it’s going to cause your ribs to crack, your heart is heavy from the grief, it’s almost as if the pain is trying to crawl out from under your skin and leave permanent scars for the world to see.
Heartache does this and so much more. It goes farther into you, destroying you beyond belief. Life is filled with fog that won’t allow you to see anything past a haze of agony. The heart is shattered into millions of pieces, strewn about the ground.
Being heartbroken feels as if you have been almost murdered, then kept alive just to feel the pain. He not only broke my heart, but destroyed my whole world and crushed my soul as well.
This was my journal entry the day before my first S-Anon meeting. One day made the difference. One day gave me the courage to stay. The first meeting, the women there, gave me hope that it was possible to heal from my husband’s addiction that saving my marriage and moving on could happen.
Now it has been a year, while there are still struggles, our relationship is healing, my husband and I have rediscovered things that his addiction stole from us. Without S-Anon, I don’t know where we would be today.
The program taught me that I am not alone, it gave me an incredible support system that is available all the time, I have people that I can share the bad days with and the small triumphs with, and each person truly understands. At meetings, you laugh, you cry, and most of all you walk away with strength and hope.
-A grateful S-Anon member